The World of Nama…in list form: Part 3


  • As my blog photo shows, when I’m not working, running after Rydia, or sleeping (and consequently having a hard time moving out of bed), Final Fantasy 14 has been my distraction from everything. To say that the past month has been rough would be the understatement of the year. I’m a level 60 Black Mage main, but I’m outfitted as a level 51 Bard in this picture, and I also dabble in healing as a Scholar (me? heal? HAHA, but it’s actually not that bad). If you’re into MMO’s, I recommend this. It took a bit for me to grow on it, especially coming from Perfect World International, but the customization is great.
  • My health is taking a dive. I mentioned back in January that I felt a mental and physical breakdown. I vowed to do something about at least the physical part since the mental part is a little harder to fix when you’re not physically able to do shit. I’ve been having back issues. As you may know1, it started a little bit before Rydia was born, but has been getting progressively worse for the past 4 years. Not only my back, but basically everything from the waist down is riddled with pain every day, sometimes all day. Then in June, I had other symptoms that were akin to pregnancy. After 2 ER trips, and multiple tests just to say “okay, you’re all good (and not pregnant)”, I decided to address everything to my doctor.
  • This should’ve been the end of it. I should’ve just told my doctor, she runs some more tests, give a diagnosis and all would be good since I would be treated. Nope. Not at all. In fact, I went to her and she ran tests for pregnancy (negative), STD’s (negative, no surprise there), and a UTI (negative). She was so sure that it was an infection of sorts that she gave me an antibiotic. Yes, she essentially was treating me for an infection that I didn’t have, that I knew I didn’t have. When all the tests came back normal, all she said was “contact me if you have questions”. Okay, then.
  • Let’s skip to this week. I’m working a lot more hours than normal since I’m the sole day baker, and they can’t retain anyone else long enough to train them properly2. I’m liking the extra hours, but my body is not, and the way it showed me was continuous pains shooting down my left leg. This has happened before. “Walking it off” helped. When I realized that walking it off wasn’t helping this time, I took painkillers. When the painkillers proved ineffective and the shooting pains went down both legs, that’s when I took action and went to urgent care.
  • What happened? Nothing. I was told to take a couple of days off to rest, take Motrin, and it should go away as it’s “most likely a pulled muscle”. Okay, a pulled muscle for 4 years?
  • So I’m looking for another solution, because when it gets to the point where you can’t even think straight because of pain, it’s about that time. I have my suspicions, but I don’t want to even talk to my doctor about it because it would probably be dismissed. I just want to feel better…before it’s too late.
    1. Or maybe not, I don’t remember if I mentioned it
    2. One quit within 3 days

Abuse is never okay

I found this article that I wrote for an e-zine last year, and was contemplating posting it here since the zine didn’t pick it up. The reason for it is because of the nature of the post–it goes deeper into what I experienced in school, which I have mentioned was no walk in the park.Continue Reading

Less bitching, more writing

I’ve had this thing drafted up for almost a month, and never got around to actually posting it. Every time I would stop gaming1, I would sit down, look at a blank page, and say “what that hell do I talk about? I’m not interesting enough (anymore) to blog. But in actuality, it was moreContinue Reading

Whatever happened to home-cooked meals?

Here’s a small story about how I was raised. My mom, whenever she didn’t work, she would cook every day, except for Fridays, where we had one day to pick any fast food that we wanted, or eat leftovers from the night before. On Sundays it was a big deal. Ranging from chicken, to goat1Continue Reading

The World of Nama…in List Form: Part 2

Due to someone’s inability to schedule me more than 12 hours a week, I had to take on a second job. The past month and a half, I’ve been trying to juggle both, but it is now becoming even more physically and mentally taxing than what it’s worth. Furthermore, my first job has now cutContinue Reading