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Clutter, Clutter, Clutter: my eventual adventure

Clutter, Clutter, Clutter: my eventual adventure

For the past few months, I’ve noticed myself get increasingly distraught by clutter. It’s not mild annoyances either; I’ve found myself cleaning after every single donut that I make at work, getting rid of any spilled fondant or sprinkles…even if there wasn’t any to begin with. Even on the games I play, the amount of crap that I have in my character’s inventory is overwhelming.

I’ll just throw this out here right now: I am a pack-rat. I feel that I can’t throw certain things away right away1 because there must be some use to it, right? After looking through my PC’s clutter, I’ve decided that some of it has to go.

my clutter

(Yes, that was just a piece of my clutter back when I was living in New York. Most of this I left back only because I was already packing heavy when I moved to California)

Cleaning out my PC

My dorky half upgraded his computer last year to something exceedingly monstrous (he does a lot of video editing and streaming) and gave me his old rig. His old computer is pretty powerful still for what I do on it. However, because of the year it was built, the hard drive only had 250 gigs. For a typical blogger who maybe surfs the net and maybe some light photo editing for their blogs, this is more than enough. However, for me, all of this space was gone even after deleting all of the stuff that was his (after backing it up, that is!), and now I’ve resorted to using external hard drives to install games on. Not really an ideal situation.

So what I decided to do was invest in another internal hard drive. This one is 1 terabyte (about 4 times as large as the old one), and this is going to be my gaming hard drive. All of my games would exclusively go on this one. For non-gamers, you may think that these games can’t possibly be this large. Oh, but they are. Final Fantasy 14 alone is about 20 gigs. Another game I play is over 30 gigs. All of my Sims 2/3/4 expansions, custom content, and other goodies? Let’s not go there, especially since the more custom content you add, the bigger that monster is.

Once that’s done, I should have about 100 gigs on that main hard drive, and I would keep my programs on there for photo editing and the like. Everything else would go on an external. Then there are the things that are outdated. I’ve thought about keeping them around for a bit, but these things are ancient. What I might do is have them on an external drive that I don’t plan on using much because of sentimental value.

De-clutter my apartment

I did a mass purge last year before Thanksgiving. Despite this mass purge, it’s still a work in progress. We have a lot of clothes. Rydia outgrew a lot of them, so I have them in plastic bags and we’re going to get them washed and donated out. I have clothes in that batch that my mom said to keep around in case I lost weight. There is no way in hell I foresee myself losing enough weight to get into a size 12 again, so those gotta go too. Basically, if it doesn’t fit, it’s gone.

We also have a lot of appliances. Don’t ask why we keep them around, but we have a coffee maker that had nothing wrong with it, but I got a Keurig instead. I’m not sure what to do with the old coffee maker since there’s nothing wrong with it, so if anyone have any ideas, let me know!

As someone who likes to keep things, this is going to be a long process. But I did admit that I have a problem, so there’s that, right?

  1. Other than the daily trash, that is

…But not in love: fighting the slump

…But not in love: fighting the slump

Just think about your typical day. You’re sitting in a situation where you like who you’re with, the money is great, and/or it’s just around the corner from your home. But…despite all of this, you’re not in love with it. Your mind wanders off your task, yearning for something more. You want to do what you truly love, your one true pairing.

Then you’re snapped back to reality as you get yelled at to “snap back to reality”. It sucks.

I am part of a web class and in my introduction, I said that while the people who I encounter on a daily basis are possibly the most awesome people I’ve met in the past year, I don’t love what I do. It struck a chord in me to actually admit this. I simply am doing this to stay afloat, but do I want to do it? Nope, not really.

Being not in love with what you do is a physically and mentally draining situation.

Being that I work in food service in a pretty high volume store, it gets busy. Like really busy. I’m mainly in the back of the house producing goodies for everyone to buy and enjoy, but there are days, even during this not-so-busy time of the year, where I simply can’t keep up. When I run out of things, people get mad. When people get mad, I stress and feel like I am not enough. Then couple that with the fact that I can’t move too fast because of widespread pain, and it makes me feel even worse. At the end of the day, the last thing I want to do is cook at home. I do it anyways, but some days it’s an order-out day. I simply just don’t have the energy.

This year, one of my goals is to not be as stressed. That was one of my goals last year, and it was going well for a time. I want to be able to come home and have energy to move around. I want to be able to say “hey, I had fun today”.

Thus why I decided to take this 6-week course on monetizing my blog.

Find your happy, do what you love

The one thing that has always been a constant for me: my ideal job. I’ve always been the creative type, always trying to make things. I doodle a lot, play with fonts and colors, and I write. That is my ideal. My ideal is wanting to make money to be self-sufficient while doing what I love: being creative.

Sometimes you have to look into finding your happy. Find what you love and do it.

Sometimes you have to take a leap. Would you make less? Maybe. Would you be miserable? Most likely not. Life is way too short to be not in love with what you do, so go ahead. Find your happy.

The World of Nama…in list form: Part 4

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  • My last entry, if you even want to call it that, I promised a better one. It has been over a month since then (oops), but that’s what happens when the holidays kick your ass from pillar to post. I’m okay though.
  • Speaking of the holidays, mine was a blast. I went to New York for Thanksgiving, hence why I was quite scarce for a week. I will say that I will never take a bus there again. Luckily, Rydia was a trooper for most of it. But that is 36 hours that I will never get back. Those two showers were the best I’ve had in ages. And the food was great too. I spent Christmas with my little family back here in Michigan. I love my family, but the huge crowd was tiring in and of itself1. It was nice to be in a quieter situation. I worked New Years weekend, and luckily it was quiet, because after the past few months I am just pooped.
  • Speaking of poop…and pee, Rydia is finally potty-trained. Not only is she potty trained, but since she finished her last pull-up over a month ago, she hasn’t even had night accidents. I shit you not2. So what worked? Nothing. Literally, the only thing that worked was just a wait and see. She expressed her dislike for diapers, but she still used them for convenience sake. When she ran out, I did a small experiment since I couldn’t go get them right away. I noticed that for weeks she would be dry. So maybe…just maybe, she didn’t need them at night either. Sure enough, nothing. That’s an extra 20-30 bucks in my pocket! I guess it goes with her milestone patterns3; when she’s ready, she’s ready.
  • On the gaming front, I’m still playing Final Fantasy 14, and I had another stint as a game master on another game (it closed after not enough funds :() Ronnie got a PS4 for Christmas, and I’ve yet to play anything on it. Other than that not much has been going on.
  • As for my health, I have to make another appointment with my doctor and tell her that the pains are worsening and hopefully she’ll look further into it than just giving me Motrin, because clearly that’s not working. Extending my knees, particularly my left knee is almost impossible anytime I do anything overly strenuous (read: work, or excessive walking). My hands are also having a rough time. There are days where typing is ungodly painful. I would like to be able to work out, but realistically, I can barely make it through work, so the last thing I want to do is more exercise outside of the 8-9 hours that I pull a day.

Happy new year!

  1. And to say that Ronnie was culture shocked is a huge understatement!
  2. No pun intended
  3. She transitioned to milk fully a little after her first, banned the paci a little over her second birthday

Obligatory Thanksgiving Post, Complete with Turkey!

Alternatively named: I haven’t blogged in a month for reasons, and yes, I’m going to use a picture that I used 2 years ago, but shut up and stuff turkey in my mouth!

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A better post coming soon. I promise. Happy Thanksgiving! Don’t eat too much lest you’ll have a bigger New Year’s resolution to make!

The World of Nama…in list form: Part 3

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  • As my blog photo shows, when I’m not working, running after Rydia, or sleeping (and consequently having a hard time moving out of bed), Final Fantasy 14 has been my distraction from everything. To say that the past month has been rough would be the understatement of the year. I’m a level 60 Black Mage main, but I’m outfitted as a level 51 Bard in this picture, and I also dabble in healing as a Scholar (me? heal? HAHA, but it’s actually not that bad). If you’re into MMO’s, I recommend this. It took a bit for me to grow on it, especially coming from Perfect World International, but the customization is great.
  • My health is taking a dive. I mentioned back in January that I felt a mental and physical breakdown. I vowed to do something about at least the physical part since the mental part is a little harder to fix when you’re not physically able to do shit. I’ve been having back issues. As you may know1, it started a little bit before Rydia was born, but has been getting progressively worse for the past 4 years. Not only my back, but basically everything from the waist down is riddled with pain every day, sometimes all day. Then in June, I had other symptoms that were akin to pregnancy. After 2 ER trips, and multiple tests just to say “okay, you’re all good (and not pregnant)”, I decided to address everything to my doctor.
  • This should’ve been the end of it. I should’ve just told my doctor, she runs some more tests, give a diagnosis and all would be good since I would be treated. Nope. Not at all. In fact, I went to her and she ran tests for pregnancy (negative), STD’s (negative, no surprise there), and a UTI (negative). She was so sure that it was an infection of sorts that she gave me an antibiotic. Yes, she essentially was treating me for an infection that I didn’t have, that I knew I didn’t have. When all the tests came back normal, all she said was “contact me if you have questions”. Okay, then.
  • Let’s skip to this week. I’m working a lot more hours than normal since I’m the sole day baker, and they can’t retain anyone else long enough to train them properly2. I’m liking the extra hours, but my body is not, and the way it showed me was continuous pains shooting down my left leg. This has happened before. “Walking it off” helped. When I realized that walking it off wasn’t helping this time, I took painkillers. When the painkillers proved ineffective and the shooting pains went down both legs, that’s when I took action and went to urgent care.
  • What happened? Nothing. I was told to take a couple of days off to rest, take Motrin, and it should go away as it’s “most likely a pulled muscle”. Okay, a pulled muscle for 4 years?
  • So I’m looking for another solution, because when it gets to the point where you can’t even think straight because of pain, it’s about that time. I have my suspicions, but I don’t want to even talk to my doctor about it because it would probably be dismissed. I just want to feel better…before it’s too late.
    1. Or maybe not, I don’t remember if I mentioned it
    2. One quit within 3 days