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I’m going to do it…again.


5 years ago, I made a decision to write a novel for NaNoWriMo. The working title was Mirror Mirror, then the final product was going to be Mirrored Worlds. Unfortunately, something happened, and Mirrored Worlds got put on the backburner. I have since added to the novel, but not substantially. Depression-induced writer’s block (and a hint of perfectionism) were the blame.

Since then, I have written…nothing. Okay, that’s a lie. I did write a play. But besides writing in my blog, I’ve written nothing of substance. I chalk it up to writer’s block, depression, and as of 2 years ago, kids.

So why am I going to do this again, knowing that I probably won’t succeed? Because as I said in my last post (kinda), writing is an outlet of mine. Whether it’s me writing a blog entry, or writing short stories or novels. Writing is my sanity catalyst. And heaven knows that I need all the catalyst I can get right now, considering my 3rd breakdown last night. Yes, it’s that bad. That, and I’m fucking crazy. 50,000 words? I barely made it to 15,000 before.

I probably wouldn’t have done this if I didn’t have some inspiration. After a session of gaming, I went to their forums where someone was doing drawing commissions for in-game currency. I have 9 characters in this game, and I wanted her to draw them all. Then she asked the question.

Do they have personalities?

One thing I remember getting praised for in high school was creating complex characters, and doing so in a short period of time. So I gave it to her. And the rest, so to speak, is history. Unfortunately, her drawing may never be done because of her real life. That doesn’t mean that I’m going to stop my little project. This time though, I’ll focus more on actually completing than perfection. The working title: Dysfunction.

So there it is. TL;DR version: I’m going to do NaNo for the second time. And this time, it will get done. If you are participating this year, feel free to add me.

Flashback: Blogging Origins

Flashback: Blogging Origins

Some people like paper, others prefer the computer. Whatever the case may be, letting out your feelings through words is always a good thing. I prefer blogging.

As you may know, I have been blogging for over 10 years now. In those 10 years, I have had 5 domain names, two livejournals, and a couple of other blogs. In those 10 years, I have evolved from a fresh-out-of-high-school angst-filled teenager with a passion for theater to a college-bound young adult…with a passion of theater to a woman with some of the darkest times of her life growing her into what you see on Namari now.

So how did Namari’s roots begin? I suppose I can give a more detailed (and hopefully interesting) story about how I started blogging.
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I am a web project masochist.

So I’ve decided that in the very near future, I want to start a new web project.

I have a couple under my belt at the moment. Most of which are low-maintenance, so I don’t have to update as often on those as opposed to here, where I am failing to blog at least a couple of times a week. It’s depressing, since I am here all day, I should be able to generate more entries in a week, but what the hell am I gonna talk about? I don’t exactly live a very interesting life (to most).

However, as you probably already know, I am a gamer. I have been one since I was itty bitty and playing Super Mario Bros. on my cousin’s NES. You know, the Super Mario Bros. that if you died 3 times, it was game over, regardless of what world you were in? That Super Mario Bros. that if you were even ONE CENTIMETER OFF screen on that mushroom block, you were assed out? Yeah. Anyways, my love for gaming was further fueled by someone with a never-dying passion of gaming–my fiance. So what kind of project would this be?

A site that is purely for gaming purposes. Game reviews, ramblings about games I currently play, rants about gaming in general. That kind of stuff. I may even bring Ronnie into it, because well…why not have an-almost husband-and-wife team collaborate?

The problem is…the project is a big one. And I’m going to design it and do most of the back job stuff solo. Do I want to really throw myself into the fire? Do I really? You know what they say…

Challenge Accepted.

Site: 1, Nat: 0.

Out of complete sheer boredom1, I decided to make a new design for this site as I haven’t had one in…I lost count. I went through my normal ritual of going to ColourLovers, picking out a color scheme, opening up Photoshop, then scrapping the idea.

Except…this time, I loved the color enough to stick with it.

Then hyperfocus kicked in. Mind you, it was at 12am at night, so what that means is that I would have to be falling over to stop2. Anyways. I experimented with this newfangled thing called Child Themes. It’s actually a lot easier than I expected. This theme is a child theme of the theme I had up last. Then I heavily chopped it up and threw it in a pan3 and this is what I got. I was prodded to go to bed when I was almost finished, so I did just that, then the first thing I did was open up4 was Crimson Editor.

Front was looking good, but then I remembered the monster that was Twitter Tools and Social.

So a few months ago, Twitter Tools updated, and it required another plugin, Social. Miffed, I decided to test it out anyways. Twitter Tools looked the same (for the most part), but what I wasn’t prepared for was how adding Social completely fucked with my comments. Since I was way out of practice5, I left it be. I couldn’t do so with this design, due to its already bright nature. That, and it did truly piss me the fuck off. So I went to Whitters’ site since she had a rant about Twitter Tools/Social giving her massive issues since that update. She suggested two plugins (ew, two plugins to do what Twitter Tools alone did). So I installed one, the other one turned out to need massive amounts of editing just to pull up my latest tweet, so I went looking around for another. This new plugin pulls everything off my Twitter, but I made it so the miscellaneous shit didn’t show, and that is what you see there.

So bye-bye Twitter Tools. You served me well for a few years. And fuck you Social. Fuck you hard.

So while I have a nice layout up6, the whole ordeal has sapped me of all of my energy. So I will probably stay away from it for a while.

Oh, and per inspiration by Angie, I made a Simblr. Turns out that I like multiple Sims in my legacy, but I’d like to keep that space for the heir and spare stories. Oh…and thanks to Geek Inside Us, I won a copy of University Life, and I spent a good chunk of my week playing around with it7.

So that’s it.

  1. And the fact that I needed a new layout
  2. Which I did, at nearly 5am, which would’ve been 4am, but fuck you daylight savings time. Fuck you.
  3. Not really, I’m banned from cooking, remember?
  4. Besides my simblr, that is
  5. And couldn’t be assed to fix it
  6. At least to me, and it’s far from perfect; can’t get the margins right in some areas
  7. Provided that Ronnie let me on between his uses.

Why I write (alternatively named: why I decided to blog rather than write a novel)

A few years ago, I decided to delve into novel writing by participating in NaNoWriMo. The end product1 turned out to be Mirrored Worlds. I enjoyed writing it, and I’m sad that I never got a chance to finish it; it’s sitting at 13,000 words.2 I wanted to participate again last year, never did, but to be fair, this was still me trying to settle in California and also the start of what would be a huge life change (although I didn’t know it at the time).

This year, I’m saving myself the disappointment. I have zero ideas for novels, so I’ve decided to not participate this year on my own accord. However, I wanted to do something to get me into writing at least semi-regularly3 in this blog. So NaBloPoMo it is. So today’s prompt:

What is your favourite part about writing?

My favorite part about writing? I suppose it depends on what it is. If it’s something like a resume, then absolutely nothing. If it’s something like a novel, then the brainstorming part is the fun part (Mirrored Worlds had a lot of brainstorming involved). If it’s a short story or a play, then it’s actually writing it. I don’t know why short stories and plays are more fun to write, but it is. My least favorite part of it all is actually making sure I didn’t fuck shit up. I’m pretty anal about spelling and punctuation and all that. I wince if I misspell4 sometimes. I will read…and re-read things to find something wrong with it. And if there is too much wrong, I scrap it altogether. Yeah, it’s that serious.

But I love to write, and I wish I could get the motivation to start (and finish) stuff again. Only time will tell.

  1. sorta
  2. Granted, I still can finish it, just have to find the motivation to do so
  3. Meaning, more than once a month
  4. I winced right there when I misspelled “misspell”